BQH Session as Prophecy – A Quantum Conversation
Recently I caught up with my friend and former client David. He was the man who had the wonderful instant healing that I speak about in another video called the GOLDEN TICKET. In this video he discusses how, that single session CONTINUES to play out in his life! A scene in that session? It was a lovely little spot in paradise, and he just happens to LIVE THERE NOW on the island of Maui.
Transcript
David
Um, man, you and I, your presence in my life is such an incredible just a prophecy, because I went to you we had our our, our experience right with with the new earth. And that was in Maui, where I was in in the when you put me in trance. I was in Maui, at this place that I went to when I moved here. And I knew it was that spot. I knew it from the beginning, and that was the place where the woman went into labor and had the New Earth, right.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Hi everyone. It’s Candace Craw-Goldman from QuantumHealers.com today I’m going to share a conversation that I had with a friend and former client. His name is David.
Candace Craw-Goldman
David is my golden ticket client, and if you haven’t watched my show with him about that session, you can click on the link below. I also feature David’s story in my presentation for the 2024 international Mandela Effect conference, where I talked about the Mandela Effect and quantum healing. We caught up yesterday, and we got to talk a little bit. So for those of you who’d like just a quick recap of his session, he came with about three particular issues, and we hit it off. We’re very friendly. We got along quite well right at the beginning and in the first five seconds of his session, he actually said, Hi, Dolores. Dolores showed up. Next thing you know, his very physical, very obvious issue that he came hoping to have some assistance with, absolutely disappeared, never to return.
Candace Craw-Goldman
We’re not going to go into specifics there to protect his privacy. He had a couple other things going on in his life, relationship things and, you know, home kind of focus. And he also had one other physical issue he was still working on, but the biggest issue that he came with for help in the session was gone immediately. And it was a really interesting session in that way, because we continued the session, right? I mean, the first five seconds we achieved together in this amazing way, his relief of very physical problem that has not returned, but we still had time, of course, to do some exploring.
Candace Craw-Goldman
And what I remember most about this was he was in a new place. There were plenty of birds. There was different kinds of birds. They had different kinds of messages. He was in a spectacularly gorgeous place that now this is in his session, and he came across a woman who is giving birth to what he described as the New Earth, and it was a fantastically gorgeous place, and that’s one of the things that happened in his session. So the following conversation, when he talks about coming to a valley where his new home was, he noticed that that was from his session. He said it was almost like an out of body experience, because he saw this valley where he now lives in our session, and he saw that a couple of years ago, so it continues to inform and help his life, this quantum healing session he had two years ago. I hope you enjoy our conversation. Thank you so much.
Candace Craw-Goldman
I can hear you.
David
There you are.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Hi, David,
David
Hi, this is my I’m going to show you my my yard. If I can turn this around, let’s turn it around. There we go.
Candace Craw-Goldman
oh, my God, that’s a lot greener than where I am.
David
Yep this is I’m filming. This is an avocado tree, right here. This is in my ohana that I live in, and then there’s some banana trees out there. So this is the tangerine tree.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Oh, my gosh, oh my gosh. Can you just go pick one and just put it through the screen for me? I will do it. I’ll send you something. You must tell me everything that’s going on. And first of all, where, where are you in relation to where all of the fires were and and how did you even. Get there and what’s going on. How are you here?
David
No kidding, let me move this. Hold on. I’m trying to, I’m trying to move you. Let’s see, I don’t know how to do that.
Candace Craw-Goldman
It’s hard with an iPhone.
David
Well, this is not an iPhone. This is my iPad.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Oh, well, it’s even harder with an iPad, I think in my experience, well, maybe you’ll bet, be better than me, but I always like, I feel like I’m looking off into the distance. When I’m talking to somebody on the iPad,
David
I’m looking in the camera, but I want to look at you. Yeah, I know. All right, screw it. I won’t let me Oh, I figured it out. Hold on,
Candace Craw-Goldman
Ethereum, that’s a that’s a digital coin, isn’t it?
David
Yeah, as a matter of fact, you see this symbol right here?
Candace Craw-Goldman
I do. It looks like the Star Trek. Star Trek symbol. It’s, I gotta just press that and you can go, like, through a wormhole or beam you up somewhere. Yeah,
David
I had several when I had my awakening. I had several psychics that I went to because I just wanted an understanding of what was going on. And one of them saw that symbol above my head, and I was wearing the shirt, and she goes, Oh, my God, that’s what I saw above your head. And I thought, well, it makes sense, because of all the pyramids in my story. But man, you and I, your presence in my life is such an incredible just a prophecy, because I went to you, we had our, our, our experience, right with, with the new earth. And that was in Maui, where I was in in the when you put me in trance. I was in Maui at this place that I went to when I moved here. And I knew it was that spot. I knew it from the beginning, and that was the place where the woman went into labor and had the New Earth, right?
David
And it’s called, it’s called Iao Valley. I A O Valley. I’ll send you some pictures and and so you knew that I met the girl that we got, we got into a relationship. Well, I after we had our last time together where we got to catch up, I ended up breaking up with her about a week before I went on my shark dive, I went shark diving. I had been wanting to do that forever, and and I got back from my shark dive, and my chiropractor had said, man, he goes, your back is perfect, and do you have any pain? And I said, No, I don’t have any pain at all. And he said, Well, I keep telling you this, but you’re not listening. You need to live by the water. So he says that to me, and I prayed, and I said, Okay, God, if you really want me to live by the water, let it be known. Well, the very next day, after I said that prayer, I went to work. This was in May of 2023, and I went to work, and I was doing this job, and an old colleague of mine that I hadn’t seen in years saw my van out there, and he pulled up and said, hey, when you get a chance, when you’re done with this job, swing by my house. I want to catch up with you. And that house was on the end of that street. So I went over there and I showed him the video of the sharks. It was a video with, I was swimming with 12 different sharks, and it was a amazing trip. It was, it was absolutely exhilarating. And I
Candace Craw-Goldman
Now, where was the where was the water? What kind of sharks? Was this a contained place?
David
No no, it was. It’s in an island off the coast of Honduras called Roatan, and there’s an actual shark dive that’s pretty famous that people like to go to, and I had been wanting to do that. So we’re swimming. I’ll send you pics, but we’re swimming with the sharks. They’re actually bumping into you. The ones that I swam with that. They were black tip. They’re called black tips.
Candace Craw-Goldman
I know a little bit about sharks, a little bit I’ve been deep sea fishing for many years in my life, so I know a little bit about sharks in the Gulf of apparently, it’s now called the Gulf of America.
David
So funny. So, so this isn’t the Gulf of America, but this is outside of that. It’s in the Caribbean, and, well, I guess it kind of is, isn’t it? I guess it, it’s on the other side, right? I don’t know. I don’t know. I have to look on a map, because I’m getting I need a map. But anyway, so I went on this trip. I get back, I show my buddy this video of the sharks. And he says, you know, he goes, I keep getting these emails from this job recruiter, and they’re looking for HVAC technicians in Hawaii. And he goes, Dave, they’re. Paying a ton of money, I bet you could do a lot of diving out there. And that was the day after I said that prayer, and I said, Yeah, you’re right. Send me the link. So he sent me the link, and I, I created a resume and sent everything into them, and I, I never heard from them for over a month. I I went on their website to see why I hadn’t heard from them, and it said that they had 268 applicants. And I thought, well, maybe I won’t get the job, but I did what I was supposed to do, you know, I did the footwork in a in a couple days after that, I get this, I get an email from them, and they want to interview. So they interviewed me three times in three days, and that was in June, and they hired me, and they said, When can you make it out? And I said, I could be there by October. But, you know, this was in June. I had to sell my business and get my kids an apartment and give everything away, and it was just a lot to do in a few months. And, and they said, Okay, well, which Island Do you want to be on? And I said, I get to choose. And they said, Yeah, you can go to the you can go to Maui Oahu.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Wait, wait, wait, can you stop right there? Can you stop right there? Yeah, in what kind of dream world is somebody offered a job?
David
Yeah,
Candace Craw-Goldman
where you get to choose which of the Hawaiian Islands you would like to live on? Okay,you’re truly blessed.
David
I said I’d like to be on Maui, of course. And that’s where I used to live in, Lahaina, actually. And this was before the fires and and so I the I go to, I sell my business, and I give everything I own away, and I just get my kids an apartment, and it’s just, and it’s in the middle of the summer when it’s my busiest season, you know, and I never had a busier summer when people found out I were leaving, I was leaving, they just I got, I got a lot of work and and then in October, or in September, I flew to Maui, and it’s been an adventure. I’m I currently live in Kula, and there was fires in Kula. Also during those fires, this is up country. I’m on the mountain of Haleakala, where where the crater is and and it’s beautiful. It’s an amazing place to be. And about three weeks after I got here, originally in 1999 I had moved to Maui with my best friend, and he was my best friend since second grade. And we moved to Maui and I, I was here in 1999 and 2000 then I moved back to the main line, and that’s when I, I met my ex wife, and we had the girls. So I had always said when they grew up, I’d like to go back. And it just all worked out that way. And then Donnie took me hiking, and we’re hiking, and I’m like, getting this incredible deja vu of the session. And it’s, it’s the literal spot where the woman
Candace Craw-Goldman
a deja vu the session, like visuals and things like that?
David
Yeah, I was in the spot where the woman had the baby of the New Earth, and it’s called Iao Valley, and it’s the spot. And I just was, like, not blown away, but it was like an out of body experience, almost like where I, well, maybe I was blown away. I was just, I just couldn’t believe it, and I and I had to just stop and take everything in. And so, so I now I work. I, I’m kind of semi retired. I work a little
Candace Craw-Goldman
congratulations.
David
Yeah,
Candace Craw-Goldman
congratulations,
David
yeah. I work a little bit. And I spend a lot of my time meditating and just really anchoring in the New Earth. I mean, you have to get away from society, because there’s so much going on in society with the media and the polarized experience people are having, and a lot of people are clearing incredible amount of fear, and you have to get away from all that so that you can manifest this new or higher vibration that’s coming in, you know? And I feel like I’m never really was sure about destiny, but I I’m pretty sure of it right now, like I’m living my destiny. And I know other people, we meditate together, we all bring in a different type of wisdom and and really try to anchor in stability and love for the planet, and you have to get away from all the conspiracies to do that. You can’t be in a vibration of fear and bring in this new Earth type of of of transmission that’s coming in. You can’t you have to let go of everything that. You knew, and everything that you know or think that you know, and you have to really focus on love. That’s what you have to do. And I’m in no better place to do that than than here, you know. So
Candace Craw-Goldman
David, I’m so as a mother and a grandmama, I have to ask this. Yeah, I need, I need a little more placement where you are. How are your girls taking it? And have they been there? And what did they say?
David
So the girls live in in the town that I left, they’re doing their own life. You know, they have boyfriends, and they’re getting their their 20 they’re going to be 22 next week. We I have been gone now about a year and a half. We talk about three times a month they have, they’re adjusting to their life without me, and it’s perfect. I mean, they are getting a dose of of being grown ups, you know, and and, you know, they call me. They call me if they need advice. And that’s really all I could ask for, is, is, and I always said that if I did my job, they’ll call me when they need to know something, you know, when they need guidance. So if they get into a stickler, they’ll call me and we’ll, we’ll work it out.
Candace Craw-Goldman
So they’re good. They’re they’re good with dad being that far away. And I bet they plan on visiting,
David
yeah, yeah, oh, they’re coming. I think one of them’s coming in about a month or two. They might both come, but for sure, one of them, of my daughters, is coming here, and I have a lot to show her. You know, I, do a lot of I’m in the water about three times a week. I spend a lot of time with the sea creatures, and they have become part of my family. You know, I spend a lot of time in the water, and I spend the other time meditating, working or going hiking around the jungle and stuff. It’s a powerful place. Maui is an amazing this island has a has a spirit of its own. This island has an identity and and it’s very nurturing. And sometimes Maui will shake it up. It’ll shake up your world. But you know, when things get shaken up and you don’t know what’s next, and you’re in that place of being in the unknown, that’s really the most powerful place that you can be in. When you’re in the unknown, you have, you have a blank canvas, and you can paint whatever picture you want. It could go either way, you know.
Candace Craw-Goldman
So as somebody who’s sort of boots on the ground, how is the area? How is Lahaina? How’s the recovery? What’s the mood like there? What? What do you say is happening there?
David
It’s intense to be on that side of the island. They’re rebuilding everything. Um, the cleanup is pretty much done. There is these layers of energy where you have an injured Island, you have an injured people, you have people that have died and lost their homes. And so when you go over there, I feel the energy of that. It’s, it’s like, really intense to heal that, but then you have this other layer of people on vacation that are kind of oblivious, you know, and and so it’s a very intense place to be. I don’t spend a lot of time there. Well, I go down there to that side of the island, probably three times a week. And I spend time there, and I get in the water and and really just try to
Candace Craw-Goldman
how far, how far is that from where you are about?
David
I’m about an hour from Lahaina, yeah, yeah. And there’s a lot of, a lot of energy over there, you know, and it’s intense. I, for me, it’s intense. I mean, I’m a, like, a sponge to energy. So, yeah,
Candace Craw-Goldman
My goodness, how things have changed since we talked last.
David
yeah, it’s, it’s an amazing like, I’m much more at peace now. Um, I just don’t really, I don’t have, I don’t have an idea of what I’m doing next. It’s really, it’s really, I’m just in the moment here. You know, I’m just in the moment and and my body is completely healing. I mean, I don’t have any pain, don’t have any anxiety. I don’t have any pain. I just, I just am in a place where I’m getting what I need, you know. And I’ve met some incredible people that are, that are becoming part of my life, you know.
David
I have said this, where I’m living in i. I’m living in an ohana. It’s 250 square feet. In this place, I live on a beautiful property with every tree you can think of, practically, and every we have like, eight or nine different gardens, and it’s a beautiful sanctuary, and it’s very secluded and and I think that I’m probably happier than I’ve ever been, you know, and I have the least amount of stuff that I’ve ever had. I mean, I lived in my van for a while. After all the displacements with the fires, I also got a little bit displaced. My House didn’t burn down, but, but where I was staying, it just a lot of change happened right away and and so I ended up living in my van for several months, and it was fine. I mean, I actually enjoyed it, because I realized all the things that I had taken for granted, and it really gets to be this thing where, like, the most important thing is just to have shelter, you know, and just to not get rained on. And a lot of people have been homeless, lot of tents on the beach, but you start to realize the things you took for granted, you know. So I’m extremely fortunate to live where I live. I am, I am living a life with less attachments than ever, you know, and I’ve, I think, in my life, I have been through a lot. It’s been a tumultuous life, and I feel like I’m being rewarded now, you know, I just have, I have a lot less people that I interact with. I’m more isolated, and I love that, you know?
David
I mean, I still see people and interact with people, but I have a lot of time to meditate, you know, I spend an immense amount of time meditating compared to before I left, you know, and it’s almost like not even just to sit down and meditate, but to be in a meditation wherever I go, just to be able to stay in the moment. Because a lot of the downloads I had after my awakening were specifically about distorted energy and how to bring in sacred energy, and how to alleviate people from a distorted conduit where people are attached to conduits that this distortion pulls you out of the moment. And if you get pulled into the past, this is resentment, usually that you have to heal. And if you get pulled into the future, it’s fear. And so the more of the distorted energy that you clear in these distorted pathways, that you eliminate, the more you can be in the moment and be in that sacred space where literally nothing can hurt you, nothing can touch you because you’re you’re in the moment, you’re present, and being present is timeless, and being present is sacred.
David
And so to get to a point where I could eliminate enough of those pathways of distorted energy and clear resentments and and resolve fears that I had, and be in the energy of forgiveness as much as possible. I mean, I’m not perfect, you know, but I am more in the moment now than I ever have been in the past and and to me, that is that’s probably why I got all the downloads about how to do that process. And that’s what my healing work is about, is helping people eliminate these conduits of distorted avenues. You know,
Candace Craw-Goldman
thing that you are a healer, but you also deal with the physical energy in and out of the containers of people with the HVAC system, yeah, you know, the getting I just my, my mind is going into sort of that, that connection space there, I imagine yours does too
David
Well, it’s amazing how many people that I I go to fix an air conditioner and they’re in need of a healing. You, you, you don’t realize it. I didn’t realize this until a few years ago, but at some point, I realized that people are inviting me into their sacred private space, and they don’t even know it there. There’s this wall that has to be brought down for you to be invited into someone’s house, and there’s trust that has to be developed for them to listen to what your opinion is on, on what the resolution is for them. I mean, they’re spending a lot of money. And when those walls get brought down and people eliminate those barriers, you actually get opened up to a healing space. Or, I should say, there’s more potential to help people to get unstuck, you know, and seeds get planted and and I’ve developed friendships and relationships with people that would have never happened without that career, you know,
Candace Craw-Goldman
Right, right, being invited into people’s homes like that, really, it’s, it’s like a second layer of of healing opportunity. It’s, it’s, it’s, so tell me, you know, you’ve always been a very connected person in in the sense that you understand how important consciousness is. How has your meditation changed since you moved to Hawaii?
David
I’m sure that’s changed drastically. When I had my awakening and I started meditating, I started having these supernatural experiences that are unbelievable, even for myself, that that actually happened. And I mean things like astral projection and and the this, the the things they tell me, the guides tell me things, and I actually hear it and it, it leads me on these various paths where it’s kind of like a scavenger hunt, almost like a like a fun obstacle course that is miraculous every step of the way, and that is a gift that was given to me through meditation.
David
And so the way my meditative state has changed is I no longer am looking for those experiences, because at some point they start, they started to decline. And I started finding meditation to be boring, because I wasn’t getting all of these signs anymore for a period of time, and it caused me to have to go into meditation purely and only singularly to connect with God. And that was the reward now, is to just be present and connected with, you know, this supreme being of creation, whatever you want to call it, I don’t have any limitations on what God is. God is, to me, is everything and anybody’s conception of God is their reality. And therefore it’s real to me, their god is real, but my perception and and what I see as God is pretty much the creator of everything.
David
And so you get to a point where it’s like, okay, I’m not having these rewarding experiences like before, these intense experiences and meditation, and I don’t feel like I’m being guided today, and it gets a little bit dull, because only thing you think about is meditation is this avenue to have these experiences that are that blow you away. And so when those start to taper off, you get to a point where it’s like, Oh yeah, I’m not even here to have those experiences. I’m only here to be present with my higher power in this very moment. And that is the purpose and and that was a shift for me to realize the purpose wasn’t to have these experiences. Those were gifts that were given to me, that that that caused me to meditate more. But the purpose isn’t for all that. The purpose is for me to be present with my higher power and connected in this moment no matter what happens, whether there’s a gift or an uncomfortable feeling or or even if nothing surfaces, it’s not like I’m not supposed to be sitting here for an hour. I’m just supposed to be sitting here being, you know, like someone said recently, and I’ve heard it before, they said, I’m a I’m a human being, not a human doing and and so that’s the way it shifted, where I still have beautiful experiences, but I’m not doing it for that. You know where the motive is gone so, and I catch myself with that motive at times. But you know, what I found is that if I’m trying to have an experience, I won’t have it. I’ll have the experience when I’m not trying to have it.
Candace Craw-Goldman
That’s it. You know, as you’re talking, I’m thinking, think of how many people go into meditation like they scroll on their phone, like they’re like, looking for the thing while they’re in meditation, which sort of it’s that part of our brain has sort of been captured by our culture and society, and we all have to pay attention to that. And I think that’s at least when you’re talking about where you’re going and how you’re disconnecting from that, that’s one of the gifts of going where you are, because if you go up by the tangerine tree and you just leave all the all the electronics inside, you know, then something, something more peaceful and natural and serene, can can show up. But it’s funny how our brain searches for that, for that entertainment.
David
Yeah, and we just had a really powerful storm come through here. I mean, intense. I thought this place was going to blow away. And the next day, the sun came out, and I went outside, and we have, I live underneath two avocado trees. There’s an avocado tree on each side of the house. Yes, I’m telling you, we probably picked up 75 to 100 avocados off the ground. So, so that experience is, is just amazing, that you have this powerful storm, and it brings so much abundance. I’ve got so many avocados. All I want to do is make some guacamole, but it looks like everybody I know is going to be making some, you know,
Candace Craw-Goldman
right, right, I remember somebody telling me once that, oh, avocados. I’ve got about them in my refrigerator right now, I’ve been, I’ve been a little bit obsessed with them lately. All you need is a spoon, a little bit of great olive oil and some salt and
David
a lemon, right?
Candace Craw-Goldman
Yeah, just fantastic. So are you like in a little bungalow, or is it complex? Or what?
David
No, no, this is, I’m in a ohana, which is like a casita. So this is my kitchen and my bed in my bathroom back there. It’s a little messy, but it’s, it’s one of these things that you have to constantly keep it clean. But this is the gift right here. This. See, this is my garden over there. I’m growing broccoli right now.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Show me the tangerines again. They were so beautiful. Yeah, what I would, what I wouldn’t give to be able to walk with you out there and have a tangerine. Yeah,
David
it’s definitely, it’s, there’s nothing here to really distract you, except for being in the moment. Because, you know, I had this experience when I moved in this place, which was a god. Was a god shot to move in here. I mean that the way that happened. I won’t get into the details of that, but me moving in this place, I was wondering why I was living my van so long, and it was so that this place would be ready for me. I’m convinced of that.
David
But one day, I was laying on the bed looking out the window at this avocado tree. And I never had an experience like this, but all of a sudden I realized that I loved the tree, right? And so I had this experience where the tree became alive as a being, and I started feeling this transfer of love going back and forth from me to the tree. And I can’t explain it better than that, but I had that experience for a good amount of time, and it’s very blissful, and that’s because all the other distractions of life are gone for me, that I can actually be in tune with the nature around me, you know, and not just see it as something outside of myself, but really view it as something that’s happening within myself, that that every single thing that’s happening in life is happening in here, you know, not out there.
David
That’s the illusion that everything’s happening out there, and every single person that I meet and every single person that I interact with is merely an extension of myself, that I have an opportunity to see myself in a different way and see what I like about myself and see what I don’t like about myself, and so that’s kind of more of the multi dimensional life that I’m living now. You know what I mean?
Candace Craw-Goldman
I do, and as you’re talking my black walnut tree wants to connect with your avocado tree, because that’s the most that’s the most intense experience I’ve ever had is with the black walnut tree, and it has shown up in sessions of mine, and in one particular sessions that I’m remembering, this black walnut tree connected with trees in other dimensions and on other planets, and like connected with the energy there, because I know that you know the root network, like the trees connect, connect down there like that, but that is my my black walnut tree explained to me that that’s a very physical connection that humans can understand by looking at the three dimensional aspect of it, but that It’s so much more expansive than that, and there’s a real reason that we talk about the tree of life and our roots and a lot of different we use a lot of tree symbolism when we talk about ourselves. They’re very, very important.
David
Yeah, the the the distinction between this micro and macro, you know, where it’s like, you start looking at those fractals, and it’s like, oh, it never ends. We are expressing ourselves through everything all the time, and everything is coming right back to us. And that, I mean, it truly is a life where we realize that we’re going to get out exactly what we put in. If we put negativity in, we’re going to see negativity. Everything that we project is being manifested for us and and everybody’s version of reality is valid. That’s the big thing, right there is once you realize that the person that’s talking to you is speaking their true. Truth, and that that’s what it is their truth. You get to see that everything exists all the time. And you don’t, you get out of resistance, and you don’t, you stop judging people, and you start looking at people and learning from them. And it’s like everybody has something to offer. And I mean, talk about trees, everybody is bearing fruit, everybody is providing fruit, you know, we we are each other, you know, and that I didn’t have that as much before I moved here, I knew some of that stuff, but being here, I’m really experiencing it
Candace Craw-Goldman
Thinking a little bit about how much you had to let go of to get to where you were, and how humans get and I’m including myself here, especially as an artist, when you create things, I went to an art show today. It was fantastic, and I’ve got art around me, but I’m throwing some of it out. I’m repurposing some of it. I’m turning some of it into other things. But when you were talking about kind of preparing to to get to Maui and giving away and and relieving yourself of all of your things, we as humans, we define ourselves often by those things. You know, what was that like to divest yourself of some of the stuff that basically defines you, basically defines your history. I mean, was it painful? Did you prepare yourself? Was it easier? It was how did you get to the point?
David
It was total freedom. Every single thing that I got rid of, I felt more freedom. I started viewing everything as an anchor, just keeping me stuck. And, you know, we accumulate shit we don’t need. Oh, I’m sure we get rid of it. And you’re like, I bought this and I never used it. You know what I mean, all that energy I put in, and then I buy this thing that I’ve never used, and I have, like, that’s, that’s a repeating story for me, that it’s like, I have so much stuff that I don’t need and so much stuff that I don’t use. I mean, it really is freedom to get rid of. I mean, what we need some clothes. We need food. We need shoes. Transportation is a good one. I mean, shelter. That’s about all we really need, right?
Candace Craw-Goldman
I and took stuff Goodwill today, and I’ve been doing that as I can, but I here’s, here’s where I get a little bit stuck. You know, I lost my brother, I lost my mother. I’m looking at some of the things that that my children made, you know, books that they read, things like, what about those things? Tell me how you manage those things, because I know you had history with your girls. What’d you do?
David
I took a picture, I got I grabbed my iPhone, and I took a picture of every single picture, and then I threw away all the pictures. That’s what I did. And it’s really neat, because the iPhone, occasionally it gives you, like, a little, like, a little slideshow. You know, how it makes it to the slideshow, and all of a sudden, I’ll pick up my phone, and here’s all these old memories. And, yeah, so I still get to, I actually, I think I visit those memories more now that the phone does that than before.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Isn’t that interesting? Yeah, isn’t that interesting? You know, I think a lot about because, you know, well, maybe you don’t know, but, I mean, before I ever got into this work, I was doing professional photography for a while, and I have these hard drives that have the bulk of my rodeo, Western, Country and Western, some of my singer songwriters that I worked with down in Texas, and a lot of those froze up, like, and they’re, they’re, they’re, they’re, so many of my photos there, and they’ve, they’ve, like, frozen up and, and I still have those hard drives and I’m looking at them. I mean, I probably should just throw them away, but, but I do know that some people, I mean, you’re able to, kind of, it’s like an archeological dig in a digital way. Sometimes those things are available. But I wonder about things like, oh, I don’t know, you know the so you’re talking even like kids artwork. You took pictures of kids artwork.
David
We I mean, I have a couple bins that I filled up, and the girls have those bins in their garage, but I detached from everything. It there’s nothing, there’s nothing that I need to perpetuate the memory. The thing is, it’s all about detachment, right? When we begin to detach from everything around us, we create our own freedom, and that includes detaching ourselves from people.
David
You know, we have these relationships, and sometimes those relationships are done, and sometimes they gotta be put on hold. And you know, I don’t, I don’t possess anybody, and I don’t want to be possessed either. And. So that experience of moving and literally getting rid of everything just showed me the value in letting go. Like I can detach from anything, anytime I want to. The question is, do I want to? And sometimes you get to detach from things that you don’t want to detach from, but if you just let go, it’s less painful. Like, if you take a, I don’t like an experience, like maybe a mother is going to get arrested and the police are going to take the kid away, and the kid is holding on tight, and the mother’s holding on tight, and when the cop pulls the kid, he has to rip them apart. When you get ripped apart, it’s very painful, but if the mother tells the kid it’s going to be okay, it’s all going to work out, and they both let go, yeah, it might not be desirable, but it’s less painful. And I think that if you think about that with every single thing you see, that letting go and letting God really is the the gift to go to let go of something is the gift, because then you have this freedom that comes about. And I try not to be attached to anything. Yet I still have attachments, you know? I mean, there’s still shit I’m working on, but I can let go of of the stuff a little bit easier, you know.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Yeah, can we have the mother and child reunite here before we move on. Yeah, and that is mostly, it’s mostly a joke, but I went, I know that the counselor in me, and the therapist to me wonders where he where that came from?
David
Well, I that came from. Actually. That analogy to me really shows how when you let go, things are less painful. And, and it’s, it’s kind of an intense visual, but I can’t think of anything else that would describe it better than that. And, and when you let go of things, they do come back to you. You know, that’s the thing. When people are holding on so tight, these things aren’t going to come back. They just want to get the away from you. But when you just let go and let people go the direction they want to go, they feel very comfortable to come back too. You know what I mean?
Candace Craw-Goldman
Yes. And you know, as you’re speaking, I’m thinking a little bit about holding on to our attachment to our body and our own pain too, right? Uh, sometimes, if you can imagine that you just, you don’t need to hold on so tight to to this corporeal existence, and you don’t have to hold on so tight to your pain. And sometimes then that can, that can dissipate, you know?
David
Well, that is exactly like, I mean, exactly what I’ve dealt with. It’s like when your body is in physical pain, you forget what you actually are. You know, like, you ever get really sick and you’re so sick that you want to die. You don’t even want to live. You just wish it would end right now, because you forget that everything passes, everything changes, you know what I mean. So it’s like, I I’m sorry about the analogy with the mother and the child, but you know that, I think I saw that happen. It was, might have been on a TV show, and that’s what I thought of. It just was such a painful thing to watch. But yeah, our pain, we get so attached to our pain. And I think that pain, when you’re experiencing it becomes eternal.
David
And so it’s like I have literally said to myself, and not just physical pain, but emotional pain too, like especially emotional pain when you lose someone that matters to you so much, you know, and then there’s this moment where you realize that’s over. It’s never going to be the same again, and you just go through this major grieving process, but the end result is always acceptance, and that’s where the relief comes, when you’ve accepted it, you know. And that goes along with addictions, alcoholism, drug addiction. We go through the stages of grief with those things too, bartering, denial and anger, and then eventually you get to acceptance, you know. So it really is multi dimensional.
Candace Craw-Goldman
It’s so great to catch up with you. David, I know that you’ve got some place to be, though, so I’m keeping an eye on the clock for you. I want to be mindful of your time.
David
Yeah, I just want, I want to know, you know, how’s everything going for you?
Candace Craw-Goldman
Well, really good. Actually, I still have dad. We are coming up on years of him living here, and when I I counted it up. It’s really interesting there. This is going to get really personal, but this is really where my head is at right now. Before I was ever a mother, I didn’t know if I was going to be a mother. I when Tom and I were married for seven years, and I was like kids. Maybe, maybe not, maybe, maybe not. I was very ambivalent about the whole idea, until my brother died. About five days after my brother died, that changed. I absolutely knew I wanted children. It was the catalyst. But up until then, I didn’t know, and those years that I didn’t know, I would think about it, and I would think about my own childhood and my mother, and how she put so much of her life into taking care of me and my brother, and I wasn’t sure I wanted to be a caregiver. I didn’t know that I wanted that much of my time as a human on this planet given over to the care of another human right. I just didn’t know about that, and I’m very glad that I had my children, but, but I’ve just kind of counted it up. I’m almost, I’m almost well. I counted it up, David and I have now taken care of both my mother and my father for more years than they ever took care of me.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Wow, wow.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Yeah, so there’s, I mean, part of me finds that ironic and funny. Part of me is very grateful that my daddy is still upstairs and I still have him. Part of me is freaking exhausted to to live this way, um, I have to give up part of my home for others to be here to help in his care. So part of my spaces given, and I have returned for the last five years, I’ve returned to because I know that you’re such a fantastic father and caregiver. You know those years when you had an infant and the night hours were tough because you had to pay attention to them at night, yes, so I’ve been, I’ve been doing that for five years, and as an as an infant, you know that it’s going to get better, but with my father, that’s not going to happen. It cannot get better. The best I can hope for is stasis. And you know, well, so every day is sort of, you know, this balance, right? And yeah,
David
when you mentioned it, Candace, just between you and I, when you mentioned it, I felt this strong heaviness in my, in my sacral and solar plexus, like, very heavy. Not bad, not bad, just heavy and full, very full. And instantly I saw something that I would like to do with you that would really help you to integrate the the experience that you’re having. And I’d like to do that would take about a half hour. I have to go now, but I’m I’m not done with you. I really want to do this with you. I think it would be really helpful. Maybe we can talk in another few days. Is that possible for about a half hour.
Candace Craw-Goldman
I would love to do that. I would love to do that. I you know, all of my clients are special. Some are more intensely connected to me than others, and you’re certainly one of them. I would love to do that.
David
Yeah.
Candace Craw-Goldman
And thank you because you are, you are a healer in your own right, and to be connected with you has been nothing short of amazing.
David
you too. You’re, I mean, think about the strong position that you represent in my life with all this change. You know, it’s so much change, but it’s been nothing but good. It has been nothing but good. I can honestly say that. So that’s a pretty important, not important, but amazing thing to say, that it’s been nothing but good. I never thought I could say something like that. You know about something, but life changes so drastically. One day you’re sleeping and you’re you’re ignorant, or I should say, maybe nation and and unaware, and then the next day, you’re like, oh my god, I’m blinded by the light, you know? So it just feels like, it feels like this process, endless process of relieving ourselves of junk so that we can hold more light, you know? And it’s just like making space for that light, and making space for that light with our relationships with others and stuff. So, yeah, let’s, um, send me an email of when you’re free, and I’ll make time for you this. Week, it’ll take about a half an hour. I already know what to do. I It came to me. I knew exactly what to do. It’s, it’s not me doing the healing. It’s God
Candace Craw-Goldman
always, always, it’s always that. David, thank you for taking time out of your day. Um, it’s been wonderful.
David
Yeah, I’m so glad we got to talk. I’ve I have a few more things to tell you, but we’ll do that next time. I’m sorry I had to cut it short.
Candace Craw-Goldman
I’m Yeah, and I had to plug you in, when I could plug you in, in my Yeah, so I thank you for that, and we’ll To be continued. How’s that
David
all right to be continued. Send me an email.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Love you.
David
God. Bless you.
Candace Craw-Goldman
Bye, bye.
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